arduous

hmm… I don’t even know where to start. Arduous, definition: involving or requiring strenuous effort; difficult and tiring. But for me I am Not carrying anything that’s heavy, but I feel it inside of me. tiered and all I am supposed to do is not give up and put on a smile to people or even myself. But I find it really difficult to do that in this situation, scared to catch up with everything in my shoulder. Scared of the word “what if I do bad” or my expectation from myself is to high and I just flop on the ground. Don’t know what to do. People say that, “you are faith and the faith I know will not bring herself down.” But in all honestly I’m terrified of DOING BAD, FAIL, OR EVEN DONT HIT MY EXPECTATION. what if my GPA is lower then last semester? I’m scared…